I finally plucked up the courage to do a pregnancy test.By anonymous on 27/01/2010
My periods have always been irregular but on the 13th October I finally plucked up the courage to do a pregnancy test. I knew in the back of my mind that there was a possibility I could be pregnant. At the time me and my boyfriend had been together for just over 11 months. I was 16 he was 20. We didn't use protection and never tried to prevent getting pregnant either, which was selfish. I did the test and I have never endured a longer two minutes than I did that day. I felt so confused I cried. I didn't know whether it was tears of joy or sadness. I was scared, happy, and strangely shocked at the same time. My boyfriend and I were so happy. We started thinking about names and how our little baby would look. I never got to fulfil that happiness. It was 2 weeks later that I finally decided to tell my Mum. This wasn't something that I wanted to do but I had to. I couldn't bring myself to speak. I held the test in my hand and was fighting to hold back the tears as I saw the look of disappointment in her face. She wanted me to have an abortion. 'Get rid of it' were her exact words. I felt such anger towards her; how could someone be so cruel. It's easier said than done,it's a whole different story when it's you carrying a little baby and someone says that. It was 2 weeks before I finally made a decision, but it wasn't the one I wanted deep down. My boyfriend was upset with my decision to have an abortion, he cried but he said he understood my decision.