I caught chlamydia and thought I could never have kids
However, at the end of January I found out I was pregnant. I told my boyfriend I was pregnant and he said he would support me whatever I wanted to do. I told him I didn't want to keep it. I felt it was the wrong time financially, career wise and where we were in our relationship. I rang my doctors to book in for an abortion, my doctors referred me to the local GUM clinic to be assessed and have counselling.
I went privateThe appointment for that was nearly two weeks after I'd originally gone to the doctors so I paid private and my first appointment was within a day. I got there and it was so quick and simple - I took the first tablet and felt fine. I went back the next day for the second tablet. I wasn't prepared for the second tablet. I felt like I was in proper labour. I was in pain for about an hour and a half and eventually, whilst in the arms of my boyfriend, pushed something out into the toilet. This is something I will never forget. I regret my decision, I panicked and made my decision on circumstances rather than what I felt for my baby. I had the option to sort it quickly and did - it's a decision I've got to live with for the rest of my life.
Editor's CommentYour story is not uncommon. An unplanned pregnancy often feels like a crisis when circumstances are making you feel pressurised, and you often feel as though you want to turn the clock back. I feel very sad that you did not have more time to think through your decision properly. Getting the private appointment the next day gave you no time to reconsider your decision and talk to an advisor to be sure it was what you wanted.
I do hope you will get help and support to help you to work through your regret. You can speak to a trained advisor on the helpline 0300 4000 999, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.