I had an abortion today
The vacuum aspiration under general anaesthetic. I was 9 weeks and 5days. An unplanned second pregnancy, I already have a 17 month old daughter. Had split with her dad, and was in a new relationship, which was not serious when I fell pregnant again..
the father of this baby was not at all supportive of me keeping the baby, he had recently been released from prison, had 2 sons,aged 2 and 1, and when he found out about my pregnancy, went back to the mother of his kids.
I knew I would not keep the babyHe said he would not stick around. When I told my family, they took it as a given that I would not keep the baby..but I didn't know for sure what I was going to do until one night lying in bed looking at my daughter sleeping, I knew I couldn't keep the baby.
I still lived at home, didn't work, and was planning to go back to college. If I kept this baby, I couldn't give my daughter the life I wanted for her. I would have to get my own place, have less money, and put future plans of going back to college and getting a job on hold...now I still feel like I have made the right decision, but I have cried a lot and I will keep this day with me forever and always feel guilty that I got into a situation where I couldn't keep my baby..when I woke up this morning I had a growing life inside me, and tonight I will go to bed with an empty space. I just hope I can use this experience to be strong and succeed for my daughter..goodnight baby, sleep tight.