All I can think about is the child growing inside me
By anonymous on 03/07/2010I live in Ireland.
Even though I used condoms,I'm four weeks pregnant and decided on abortion immediately.I found out on wednesday and if I could have gone and done it then I would have.
Since then I've found out I have to be at least 6 wks gone first.
The father is my friend's brother and we've only been casually seeing each other.
The friend in question does not know I've been seeing her brother as she would disapprove and would in no way support a termination.
My best friend lives in London and my parents live in Australia,They're being hugely supportive but I don't have anyone that can come and give me a hug.
I don't think I've ever felt so aloneI,m nearly 26 and have always maintained that I don't want children,but now all I can think about is the child growing inside me and I just can't stop crying.
The father was brought up to be against abortion but I think he's secretly relieved that that's what I've decided to do.He's due to go travelling in Australia in october and I had planned to move to London in a few months.
My parents said if I choose to have the child I can go and live with them in Oz and they will help me(im originally from australia)but they think a termination is the best option for me.
So now I'm faced with this impossible decision.I have no desire to be a single mum,I'm not in love with the father and cannot see us working out in the long run.I know I cannot have this child but heart is in pieces.