A crisis pregnancy at 30
By anonymous on 19/07/2011I found out I was pregnant 4 days ago. Although I am 30, my circumstances are not exactly ideal. I am quite ashamed that this pregnancy was the result of a casual relationship. I have still yet to tell him and if I'm honest I don't think I ever will.
We were careful using condoms every time we had sex, apart from the one time when I conceived.It sounds ridiculous in a way, but I never thought I could possibly get pregnant, so I was shocked when the two pregnancy tests that I took revealed themselves to be positive.
I have my initial appointment on the 19th July, but it's the waiting that's causing a lot more upset than the procedure. I have done quite a lot of research on the internet and I think that I will be opting for a medical termination. I am certain in my decision to end this pregnancy, but feel fear of disappointment from my friends and family, which is why I have chosen to tell just the one person. Thankfully she is a midwife and a very good friend of mine. She is non-judgmental and has a thorough understanding of the process, which has been a great comfort to me.
My biggest fear, is that I won't ever have the chance to be a mummy again and that I might have lost the opportunity by choosing to abort this 'cell' (I find that referring to 'it' as a 'cell' easier to de-personify what's currently growing inside me).