Pregnancy soon after an abortionBy anonymous on 04/01/2012
I had an abortion in February 2010. My whole life fell apart, relationships ended, everything changed. I fell into a deep depression, struggled to look after my two other children. I began drinking to excess, I met him one night when I was drunk. He helped me to see the light and pulled me out of depression, but he wasn't right for me, and after a few months I ended the relationship. In August 2010, I realised I hadn't had a period in about six weeks. I did a pregnancy test and was heartbroken when I saw it was positive. I knew that I was at least four months pregnant and after my previous abortion at an early stage, that was traumatic enough, I didn't know what to do. So I called my midwifery team on September 1st 2010. The midwife gave me an appointment that day about thirty minutes after the phone call. I lay down and she felt my tummy, and said I was at least 16 weeks. She put the doppler on my tummy and I heard his heartbeat. She arranged me a scan for later that same day. I was terrified. As I lay on the bed being scanned, I could see the baby was big.The sonogorapher began taking measurements and saying them quietly to her assistant....then I heard her say "35" and my heart stopped, I felt faint, I struggled to breathe because I thought she meant I was 35 weeks pregnant and that my abortion hadn't worked. Then she smiled and announced I was 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant. In a way, that relieved me but then I grieved all over again because I had received a tiny glimmer of hope that my baby was still there from February! I lay in shock and she asked if I wished to know the sex of the baby, I said yes, knowing this would help me deal with this, and they told me I was having a little boy.