14 weeks pregnant after an abusive relationship

I have been thinking about abortion.
I'm 14 weeks and I already have two kids. I live with my mother after living with my kids' father since I was 18. Now I'm 27 barely graduated from nursing school.
I was in a situation where I had an abusive relationship with my previous baby's father. I tried to stick it out and stay but it was cheating, physical abuse and verbal abuse. I felt so small and I couldn't take it. After having my second child my kids' father became weird and a year later he killed himself. I was so hurt and I couldn't believe this was happening to me. The whole moral of the story is I'm pregnant now and I'm with a guy who I told my whole story to and now within the two years of being together he's becoming that same exact guy. I really want an abortion, it's just everyone knows and I really don't want a situation where I'm back in that abusive situation. I can't stand to see myself back in that kind of relationship again.
I'm starting to be way unattracted to him. I just want my next baby to be by my husband and someone who respects me and loves me. I want this abortion but I need someone to talk to because I'm only scared of the feeling during and after the abortion.

Editor's Comment

It would be good for you to talk this decision through with a counsellor so that you can look at all the options, and be sure that the decision you make is the right one for you. I can understand your anxieties, particularly after you had been in an abusive relationship that ended in a suicide. Please contact CareConfidential so that they can get you in touch with someone who can help you. find a centre for pregnancy choices support in your area.

This story was sent in on 06/01/2012

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