14 weeks pregnant after an abusive relationshipI have been thinking about abortion.
I'm 14 weeks and I already have two kids. I live with my mother after living with my kids' father since I was 18. Now I'm 27 barely graduated from nursing school.
I was in a situation where I had an abusive relationship with my previous baby's father. I tried to stick it out and stay but it was cheating, physical abuse and verbal abuse. I felt so small and I couldn't take it. After having my second child my kids' father became weird and a year later he killed himself. I was so hurt and I couldn't believe this was happening to me. The whole moral of the story is I'm pregnant now and I'm with a guy who I told my whole story to and now within the two years of being together he's becoming that same exact guy. I really want an abortion, it's just everyone knows and I really don't want a situation where I'm back in that abusive situation. I can't stand to see myself back in that kind of relationship again.
I'm starting to be way unattracted to him. I just want my next baby to be by my husband and someone who respects me and loves me. I want this abortion but I need someone to talk to because I'm only scared of the feeling during and after the abortion.
Editor's CommentIt would be good for you to talk this decision through with a counsellor so that you can look at all the options, and be sure that the decision you make is the right one for you. I can understand your anxieties, particularly after you had been in an abusive relationship that ended in a suicide. Please contact CareConfidential so that they can get you in touch with someone who can help you. find a centre for pregnancy choices support in your area.
This story was sent in on 06/01/2012