I am not sure which decision to make for the best
A week ago I discovered I was pregnant. I wasn't that shocked when both home tests read positive. I had been feeling 'weird' for a few weeks. I had gone completely off sex, didn't want my partner to touch me especially my breasts as they had become very heavy and sensitive, I had strange feelings in my lower stomach, my pre-existing depression had increased, I was very tired all the time and was achy all over.
I am a regular horse rider and noticed a change in my riding - I had become weak and struggled to mount with the same 'spring'. Even though I wasn't initially shocked, it did provide a reason for my 'weird' feelings and it was even a sense of relief as I had begun to think that something more serious was going on. I am, however, in a bit of a spin.
Although I am in a loving, stable relationship, the circumstances are far from ideal. We are 23, and my partner is still in part-time higher education and as such is under a lot of stress. I have just started a job that I adore and our living and financial conditions are far from ideal - we are in a new area and I am not even registered with a GP yet! I am also concerned about my mental health. I am really conscious that I am still very vulnerable and wonder what effect parenting or abortion would have on my mental health.
I contacted an unplanned pregnancy advisor (four days after the positive result) using a helpline who encouraged me to tell my partner as I had been entertaining ideas of making a decision all by myself. I am so glad that I contacted somebody, they were so supportive and made me feel positive about seeking advice. I also told my partner who is being supportive.