I have wanted a baby for the past 2 years and he knew this but he was not ready.

By anonymous on 17/12/2012
I am 28 and he is 29 and we've been together for 10 years. I recently did something very stupid in June and cheated on him. I confessed 3 months ago and we have been working it out slowly but I have fallen into depression and am locked and stuck in this shame and guilt spiral that has pushed me to the brink emotionally.
Even though we are going through this, recently in the past month or so almost every time we have sex he wants to forgo protection so I can get pregnant. Thus far I have convinced him it would be a bad idea and unhealthy for the baby but I break down more and more during sex now and feel I am very close to just saying yes and getting pregnant.
I have wanted a baby for years and now that we are going through the worst time in our relationship he wants it too. I'm scared that I'll say yes and he'll regret it later because now we are always attached. I don't know what to do but I'm scared I will be pregnant very soon.

Editor's Comment

It is not unusual when you are going through a bad time to think that a baby will put things right and cement your relationship. In truth I think you would be wise to work out some of the problems first as a pregnancy could put more pressure on you both. It would probably help you to have some counselling so that you can draw a line under the fling that you had, and move on. You also need to know that your boyfriend has forgiven you and that this will not keep coming up every time you have an arguement. If you would like some help please contact the national helpline 0300 4000 999. A centre may be able to help you, or put you in touch with some counselling help and support.

I have wanted a baby for the past 2 years and he knew this but he was not ready.

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