My gut instinct is I do not want to abort this baby.By anonymous on 01/04/2013
Hi I have been with my very on off partner for four years, he has cheated on me and every other partner he has had. I finally changed the locks on my house last week and decided to cut him out of my life. I do love him we are like best friends and if he didn't cheat he would be perfect (ish)I don't come without my own issues. Short tempered, nag :o). 18 months ago I got pregnant and had a termination. I wanted to back out when I was dressed in the theatre gown, I didn't and have always regretted it. I have barely slept with him over the last 6 months as I have suspected him being unfaithful again. However I have been aware I've missed a period, have just done a test and I am pregnant again.
I am 39 have an 18 year old and a 15 year old and haven't found being a parent an easy job at all. He is 44 has a 12 year old and a 21 year old. I have a fairly good job and still have career ambitions. I have a slightly racist family, I am white he is black, I anticipate my family being embarrassed of their being a mixed race baby in the family. That said I'm not too close with my family. The father would be a good father as in he would support the baby for the entire life. He is a better parent than me to be honest.
I just want some advice, our age,and my children's age and the fact that we probably won't be together as a proper solid family unit concern me, but my gut instinct is I do not want to abort this baby.