I'm 8 1/2 weeks pregnant and was advised to have a abortion.

I'm 23 years old and going through a divorce, was married for 6 yrs have a beautiful and smart 6 yr old girl who I love with all my heart.
I found out two weeks ago I'm pregnant by my current boyfriend. I'm 8 1/2 weeks pregnant and was advised to have a abortion. I'm against that idea, but I'm in a bad place in my life right now. I don't have a job, I live with my aunt and all my family is on my back about what I should do with my life. My mother already warning me that if I come out knock up she will disown me and to forget that I have parents, and my aunt who I live with will kick me out, I'll become homeless with nowhere to go with my daughter.

I'm scared that her father will find out that I am pregnant and try to take my daughter away from me again. I don't know what to do. I'm stressing out so much because I know I'm not financially stable, and I don't want to have an abortion but I don't want to lose my family who are helping me out so much right now.
I haven't told anyone about me being pregnant, I'm scared of my family's reaction. My boyfriend who has been helping me with my stress over my family, says that he is not ready to be a dad but will have me back with whatever d├ęcision I decide to make.
He is a great guy. We have only been together for 3 months but I've known him for over 7yrs, he recently became unemployed and he lives with his mother. I told him about maybe having an abortion but I don't want to do it. He tells me not to beat myself up over it and that we will have a baby when we're both ready.
He worries about my health because on top of all my problems I have tumours on my liver and being pregnant can make them pop and can be fatal. I'm overwhelmed with everything and to make matters worse my appointment for my abortion is this Thursday. I don't want to go through with it but I don't want to disappoint my family and I feel that my job right now is to do whatever my family says and make them happy and not myself.
I'm afraid I'll fall back into my depression that was very bad and had me in and out of the hospital, and I got out of it when I broke off with my soon to be ex-husband. I just don't know what to do or think I feel like a fish out of water....hopeless

Editor's Comment

I think the first thing to say is that if you feel so undecided, I would defer your abortion appointment until you feel more settled about the decision. Secondly, it is important to make the decision that is right for you and not your family. Although they are an important part of your life, you are the one who will have to live with this decision for the rest of your life, and to live with regret is a heavy burden. It may help you to have some pre abortion support from someone independent. This gives you the chance to think things through without pressure, and be sure of your decision. find a centre for pre-abortion support in your area. for unplanned pregnancy support.
This story was sent in on 07/01/2014

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