I'm 37, almost 38, and we had a birth control failure.By anonymous on 22/12/2014
I'm 37, almost 38, and we had a birth control failure. We have 7 children (22,18,16,13,9,8,& 6). I'm torn between keeping this child or letting go. My last baby was a very difficult pregnancy and birth and I was put on bed rest. Then two years later I had a horrible 12 week miscarriage. I'm much older now and I feel my plate is over running.
I realize this might be my last chance. I'm barely 5 weeks along. My husband is supportive either way. He does love babies but understands the spacing between the older and younger would be hard.
We have been talking a lot and go back and forth. He is worried about my health if I go through the pregnancy. There would be no way we could handle a disabled child at this point in our lives - so if any of the prenatal test came back positive we would abort but it would be much further along.
We just have been able to start taking vacations as a family again. I just went back to work a year ago and work with infants all the time. I love my job. I keep thinking if I had a miscarriage at least my decision was made for me. .. I feel that I'm being selfish either way. Selfish to my kids and their limited time they get with me now if I keep it, and selfish to myself if I abort. I also feel guilty either way.