I am 18 years old; I am graduating from High School in two weeks and getting my diploma.By anonymous on 21/05/2009
Hey, I appreciate you for taking the time to read my story. Well, let’s all start with this. I am 18 years old; I am graduating from High School in two weeks and getting my diploma. I left my house in early November of last year to live with a friend and her parents. I still was able to see my boyfriend and visit him. Then we had unprotected sex. Of course, it was a huge mistake, and I accept the consequences and I have to clean up my mistakes. Well, I just found out two weeks ago I am pregnant and my boyfriend is there for me even though he is away right now. He can't do anything until I graduate from High school which is right around the corner.
I told my family that I was pregnant. They called me a whore or a slut and that my baby needs to die and that it is going to become deformed and stuff like that. That really hurts me so I have no support from my family except my boyfriend’s family and they live up there. My sister in law is here for me and she is nearby. I am living with her until I graduate.
I was moving from house to house with two black bags trying to find a place to live because my family is so negative and I don't want to go through hell!!!!! My family has never met my boyfriend and they have judged him from day one. He's been wanting to meet them but they don't want to. They just say things to me that bring me down. My man and me are so in love and he is here for me 100%. We have our problems but we fix them in the end and are there for each other.
Another issue is that I am not financially stable and the economy is so bad. I don't want to be a lazy woman. I want to be independent. I have no car, and it’s hard to get to college now. My uncle gave me 30,000 dollars when he passed away three years ago. My mom doesn't give me support and she won't give it to me. I am 18. I need the money really badly so that I can survive!!!! I am going crazy. I can't abort the baby. I don't believe in abortions and my heart is telling me not to abort it! So I can't. I told my family I was going to abort it. They were happy I was going to, until the last minute I said I couldn't do it! OMG, they made a big show about it. My whole family isn't showing support at all. So I don't know what to now???? I am really scared. All I can do is pray and wait until after graduation so that my boyfriend can get me out of here.
Oh, and forget about that money that my mother is not giving me, something that belongs to me. I hate it when my mother has to tell my older brother everything. My brother is evil. He just never liked me, I don't know why, but he put stuff in my mom's head so she said she lost the bond and that she can't find it... Now she tells my sister in law that I don't have anything. So it’s really hard but I am going to sacrifice myself to keep this child and become a positive person.
Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing your story with us…It sounds you know exactly what you want to do and are willing to fight for it. You need some immediate support so that you can carry through with the decision you made. Contact your nearest pregnancy support centre – one is Optionline on 800 – 395 – HELP as soon as you can.