I want desperately to get my life back on track.
By anonymous on 08/06/2009I’m 23 and have two beautiful children. I was a young mum to my eldest who's five now. I want desperately to get my life back on track. I’ve moved to a better area and I am trying to start up a business of my own. Recently I found I was in early stages of pregnancy (9 weeks to date) due to a problematic coil. I booked an abortion immediately and attended clinic yesterday. I felt overwhelmed and walked away. I have now rebooked for next week and really want to do the best thing for my family. Please could you suggest to me a better way to deal with next week. I am not in any position right now to have a third child at only 23. Any suggestions???
Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing your story…it sounds as if there is a part of you that is uncomfortable with having an abortion in some way. It’s important to listen to this part of yourself as it may be a part of you that causes you pain afterwards. Of course, you are working hard to make your life work right now, and a pregnancy messes up your desire to get your life ‘back on track’. The problem is that if you go against what your heart may be saying about ending the pregnancy, you may not be able to get back on track anyway. You’ll just be dealing with emotions like guilt, grief and anger.
Many women feel as if their head is telling them one thing and their heart another, and they feel in conflict with themselves. They don’t give themselves enough time to discover what’s going on at a deeper heart level because their circumstances make it feel urgent. However, this can set you up for regret later. Peace needs to rule in your heart and mind.
Visit your nearest pregnancy centre to talk through your options, explore your feelings and make an informed decision, not one based on fear or panic. You can also ring the helpline and talk it through. Don’t rush – you must make the decision you can truly live with. We’ll be thinking of you.