I found out last week that I am pregnant again (about 8 weeks).
I wonder what decision you made, as the date of your appointment will I think, now have passed. Thanks for telling us your story. It sounds like you had a very difficult pregnancy first time around, with sickness and feelings of depression. That can be such a disappointment and a difficult challenge in itself even during a planned pregnancy. It sounds like you may have had similar thoughts and feelings to those that you are having now. It looks like there are many factors that are making coming to a decision difficult: not feeling maternal, your husbands desires, your thoughts about your son’s future, fears surrounding making a decision to have a termination, feelings of just getting your life back, fears from your first pregnancy etc. I would say that with 80% certainty, you still have things to think through. A decision where you have voiced doubts about how you will cope afterwards, is an uncertainly which you cannot risk. If you are still at this time undecided, please call our national helpline on 0300 4000 999. For yourself, or anyone reading this, it is important that you have the time to explore all your options and feelings during the decision making process. I would recommend you visit your nearest pregnancy support centre where you will receive specialist help at this time. If you have had a termination, please don’t hesitate to contact us if you need to – you will receive the help and support you need from our specialist advisors.