I found out two weeks ago that I am pregnant! This was after a disastrous night with a man I really shouldn't have slept with.
By anonymous on 29/10/2009
I found out two weeks ago that I am pregnant! This was after a disastrous night with a man I really shouldn't have slept with. I know that if my family found out I slept with this guy they would be very angry! I am 25 and work two jobs just to make ends meet and I just cant see what I can give to this baby.
The only person I have told is my best friend and at first she got all excited but I've told her I am going to have an abortion. She is supportive, but wants to come with me as she doesn't think it is something I should do alone! But I just have to do it alone, I can't bear to put that emotion on someone else.
I can't get the abortion done for another week because I don't have the time and I don't want to arouse suspicion by changing my schedule too much.
The funny thing is that even though I know I am going to 'get rid of it' I still feel responsible for it and don't drink at all, or do heavy lifting,or anything like that. I am coping by trying to pretend I'm not pregnant but everytime I feel sick or have to rush to the toilet again or find myself being really really tired I am reminded of the situation I am in. Any way I just needed to share this with someone other than my best friend.
Editor's Comment:
It sounds as though you are being pulled in different directions. Your mind and thoughts are telling you that you can't keep the baby, while your instincts are wanting to protect it and look after it.
You write as though you are sure about what your decision will be, but I wonder if it would be good to talk to someone independent to be sure about this. The national helpline has trained advisors who can help you without any pressure or bias (0300 4000 999). If you decide to go ahead with the abortion, you will be able to look back at the experience and know that you thought it through completely and made a fully informed choice.
