I'm so sorry I can't keep you safe inside of me. And give you life.

I just found out I am 8 weeks pregnant with my ex boyfriend's baby, but I think I knew long before I saw positive on the pregnancy test. Due to the timing of my life, (I'm only 20) bringing this baby into the world is not the right thing for me. Despite knowing its best, there is still a deep sadness that comes along with parting with one's unborn child. Therefore, I wrote a letter to my baby, saying Goodbye, that I would like to share. Dear Baby, I'm sorry I brought you into this world at a time when I have to say Goodbye before I can say Hello. If I could give you the world, I would, but right now, I can't. Because you see, I'm just a kid myself... I'm sorry you will never experience the warm sun, or spring's flowers or fluffy snowflakes that turn into snowmen. I'm so sorry I can't keep you safe inside of me. And give you life. Please find it in your innocent little heart to show me mercy and grace that I know not of... It will be the hardest thing yet, to part with you, we've been together a little while now But please, don't be afraid Baby God will take care of you And in God's arms you will find a peaceful resting place. I will never, ever forget you. I love you- Goodbye. Editor's comment:- I feel very sad reading the letter you have written to your unborn child. It sounds as though your decision to end your pregnancy is full of sadness and regret, and I wonder how you will handle that in years to come. Before you make this final decision perhaps you should think of each of the options carefully and make sure that the one you choose is really right for you. Sometimes the difficulties of parenting can be overcome with the right support. For some women adoption is a more positive option, equally sad and difficult, but definitely right for some women. If you would like some pre-termination counselling to be sure of your decision, please ring the helpline 0300 4000 999 or look for a centre for unplanned pregnancy in your area on the web site. -

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