A pregnant 16 year old
By anonymous on 27/11/2011
I've only been 16 for 4 months and I met this boy who's a bit older than me and we started talking about 2 months before my birthday. We had had history before that, but we stopped talking for 8 months and when we got back in contact we didn't have sex for a while. After my birthday we started to have sex everytime we saw each other. He seemed weird and sneaky, and my friends always tried to warn him off me but I didn't listen because he told me what I wanted to hear.I found out he was meeting a girl who my bestfriend knows, so I stopped talking to him and seeing him. I did start to have really irritating skin and was going off my favourite foods and craving others but I didn't think anything of it. Then I started sleeping all the time and I was still tired and I still didnt realise! I was getting headaches and more and more symptoms. Then for two days I was bleeding heavily and getting really bad pains in my belly, and I shouldn't have because I thought it was my period and I've been on the pill for 2 months, but it wasn't my period. It went after two days but I still had really sharp pains and they did not feel like period pains. I started to get worried, I knew something was wrong. I felt my belly and it was hard and you can tell there's a little bump. I thought I had just been putting on weight, and I can't believe I only realised a week ago that I have been pregnant for 3 months or maybe a bit more now.
I put my hands on my belly a lot because I just can't believe my child's there.
I've felt movement and thumps against my belly, maybe they are kicks? That's what it feels like to me. Each day I can tell things are changing, my symptoms, emotions. I told 3 of my closest friends about 2 days ago, they think I should get an abortion. I told them I'm going to, but I only said that because it seemed like the easiest thing to do. My parents don't know, or the father and I'm really scared to tell them. Sometimes I feel like I connect with my baby when I put my hand on my belly, and I can feel movement. It feels like the best feeling in the world.
I don't think my friends understand what I'm going through because they have never been pregnant. I know my mum and dad will be deeply ashamed and although they are always there for me, I don't want to put this on them. They have too much going on. I know the father will care, but I just can't bring myself to tell him. I don't know what he will think, he might want me to get an abortion. I'm pretty much on my own and I cry to myself, there's noone! I'm not even going to the doctors or hospital or anything I'm so scared.
