Pregnant again after having twins.
At the moment my son is 21 months old and my twins are 4 months old and I've just found out that I'm pregnant again. I was on the pill but I had missed a couple. I don't know how far pregnant I am as I've never had a period since the twins.
At first I was shocked and terrified. How on earth was I going to cope with 4 kids under 3 and then what if I have twins again that would be 5 babies. We don't have a lot of money and we live in a small 2 bedroom flat that is already far to small for us, and walking to the shop at the end on the street is an hour long affair by the time I take the buggy and 3 babies down the stairs and back up again. I started to panic and spent most of the day crying.
Luckily I found this website after googling to see what options were available.I felt like I didn't want the baby as I'm already stuggling to cope with 3 babies and post-natal depression. I wasn't comfortable with abortion though and I know I could never go through with an adoption. I phoned up the helpline and spoke to a wonderful advisor who didn't judge. She listened and helped me define how I was feeling. Speaking to her made me realise that a part of me was already thinking about the baby, if they were a girl or boy, who would they look like etc and it was then that I realised I was keeping the baby.
She advised me to take a little time to think about it and talk to my partner (hadn't even told him I was pregnant yet). He thought it was great news and couldn't understand why I wasn't excited. I tried to explain that we are already struggling with 3 babies and he just cuddled me and said we will manage, this is our baby, a part of both of us and we will find a way.
I'm still terrified of the thought of another baby in 6-9 months but I know we will manage somehow and it's the right decision.