My miscarriage was inevitable.
I wanted to make sure, so I bought 3 more tests. All positive. I then paid a visit to my GP. My blood test results indicated I was 5-6 weeks pregnant. The following week I had my first ultrasound scan. She couldn't see much, so she had to complete an internal. The scan indicated I was 5 weeks pregnant.
Me and my partner - both being young 18 year olds, we had numerous amounts of discussions on what to do and which route to take. We didn't plan on it, but we came to the conclusion that we were financially stable and in a great relationship and we simply could not get rid of our own baby.
We came round to the fact that we were having a baby. We accepted the fact that we were going to get judged and told we couldn't do it and it was silly etc. We both became excited.
A not so good thing became good, and just as it did, things took a turn for the worst.
On Good Friday I was presented to the emergency room as I started to bleed lightly. Being my first pregnancy I wanted to make sure all was ok, I didn't want to chance it. Better safe than sorry I always say.
The doctor recognised my symptoms and said it was possible I was showing signs of miscarriage.
She said she could be wrong. It was early days. At this stage the HCG blood level was showing 9600. They told me if it were to stay the same or drop, it indicates miscarriage.
Easter Sunday I was presented to the emergency room again. I was experiencing light abdominal pain and slight clotting instead of spotting. The doctor had confirmed that I was indeed having a miscarriage. My blood level dropped to 8200. At this point, my miscarriage was inevitable.
My thoughts were all over the place, but I came around. Everything happens for a reason.
The day after, Monday. I was taken into emergency via ambulance. I was experiencing excruciating abdominal pain. I couldn't walk. Couldn't sit up. I was screaming in absolute agony.
My blood pressure had dropped. I had to be put on a drip to get fluids in me. I received heaps of pain relief. I had an examination to make sure the miscarriage hadn't caused any further damage.
Tuesday was ok, I had extra strong pain killers.
Wednesday, I awoken at 6am as I needed the toilet.
I was only using pads. I went for a wee, but it felt like I had a tampon in my vagina, so I pushed.
Out came a massive clump of tissue and blood. I had passed the baby. I felt no pain, probably due to the fact that I was on very strong pain killers.
All day Wednesday(today), I've been experiencing extreme migraine, and been very sick and actually vomiting.
Whether the baby was planned or unexpected...whether the mother-to-be wishes to keep or abort the baby...either way having a miscarriage is not a nice thing to experience. You'll grieve either way.
If you are pregnant and experience any form of bleeding, I recommend you attend a hospital and keep getting yourself checked out.