Once my medical abortion was over I was gutted, it was the worse feeling I've ever feltBy anonymous on 06/01/2012
I was with my boyfriend for 2 years and he was serving in Afghanistan when I found out I was pregnant.
As soon as I told him he made his feelings clear, he was 21 and did not want a baby. I felt there was no other option and I went to my GP who referred me to the local hospital.
I was early enough to be able to have the tablet form abortion.
Having the first tablet was fine, but 2 days later when I went for the final stage, I was crippled with guilt and found it very difficult to even enter the hospital.
Once it was over I was gutted, it was the worse feeling I've ever felt.
Over time it hasn't got any better. I still struggle to sleep and I'm constantly racked with guilt. I can't even be around children and babies.
Not only did I lose my baby but I also lost my boyfriend. He returned from Afghanistan but things were never the same and it fell apart within weeks.
It's been nearly a year now and I'm finally admitting that I need help and I've signed up to start seeing a counsellor and I've also been prescribed with antidepressants. Things never get easier but I found that talking and admitting I had a problem helped.