I fell in love with my baby and regret my decision to have a surgical abortion

I was engaged for 2 years. My long distance finance lived in America and me far away miles from him. Countries apart, long distance had its obstacles.

So in this period of loneliness I met this guy who swept me off my feet my was everything I wanted. I did not have any interaction with any other guy other then my finance and he was the only guy whom I started talking to after my finance.

We started spending a lot of time together we expressed our feelings and we started getting physical. I fell more in love with him and my relationship with my finance almost broke down so I asked the other guy that we could be in a relationship now but he refused and said he doesn't love me anymore. He declared that I love my finance so he won't be with me and blamed the whole situation on me knowing that I had fallen in love with him.

He made me fall in love with him. He went to other girls and rubbed it in my face.

We stopped contact but I found out I was pregnant with his baby. He forced me for an abortion and said he won't support me.

It's been 2 months since I had an abortion on 7 weeks surgical abortion and since I woke up I have been feeling dead. I fell in love with my baby and I regret my decision and want my baby badly.

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This story was sent in on 05/04/2015

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