Due to the return of my post natal depression I had an abortion at 17 weeks

Hi, I'm 22 and have a 3 year old daughter. I suffered Post Natal Depression (PND) when she was born, and last year thought I was well enough to come off medication.

Me and my partner agreed to try for another baby. Then my PND returned and I found out I was pregnant. It was horrible, being happy but feeling so down too.

After a lot of heartache, I decided to have an abortion which took place when I was 17 weeks!

It was awful and will stay with me forever. I saw the feet and legs of my baby after I gave birth to it before the nurse took it away. This will haunt me whenever I close my eyes.

My depression is worse than ever and if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't be here right now.

I totally regret having an abortion and never ever want to have to go through with it again!

Thanks for reading

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Editor's comment

You have had a very hard time when depression has caused you to make a decision you would not normally have felt happy about. Often when you feel very low you can't see a way through and perhaps for you, abortion seemed the only way out of your depression. Unfortunately, abortion can make depression worse and it sounds as though you are really struggling with this decision now. Please contact a centre to talk this through - follow this link to find a centre for post-abortion support in your area.

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