If I choose an abortion I could never look at him in the same way again
I’m 28 and I live on my own. Last year I split with my boyfriend of four years and began seeing someone else quite soon after.
I have been with my new boyfriend for ten months and I love him to bits, but a while back he said he didn’t want to get too serious which put a bit of a cloud over things. But after a few weeks we were loved up again and things were good.
Now I’ve found out I’m five weeks pregnant!!
I was feeling happy at the start because I was unsure if I could ever have children, but then I began to feel scared and confused about what would happen.
I told my boyfriend last night and to my complete surprise he mentioned an abortion.
I knew he wouldn’t be happy because he thinks he's too young and isn’t ready to be a father but he usually has a strong opinion on these sort of things. He's also crazy about his nephew, so I couldn’t believe he suggested this.
So now I have a decision to make because I feel like I’m faced with a no win situation... either way I lose him.
If I choose to keep the baby, he won’t want the responsibility or hassle so I’ll be left to do it all on my own and keep the house all on my own... If I choose to have an abortion then I lose my baby and lose him as well because I don’t think I could ever look at him the same again.
I think I would end up blaming him and myself. I feel that if someone wanted me to get rid of a baby we made together, then he really doesn’t love me as I love him, so therefore I don’t see us having a future together.