My partner doesn't understand how this early miscarriage has really affected me
Last year I was away for the weekend and I had a miscarriage without me knowing I was pregnant... it was a very early miscarriage I think.
I started bleeding and thought nothing of it and just thought I was on my period (although I was bleeding very heavily) until I went to the toilet and noticed that what came out of me wasn't normal... I froze and didn't know what had happened.
I got my mum to look up what a miscarriage was and the signs to look out for, and I had all of the signs except for cramps. Then the bleeding stopped and started again lightly.
When I came home I took two pregnancy tests and they both came up positive. Although I had the incident in the toilet it must have still been in my hormones, but at that point, I wasn't too sure if I was still pregnant or not.
Next, I went to work and had major cramps which were so bad I was crying. I went to the hospital and saw a doctor and took another pregnancy test which was now negative.
I still get upset about what has happened even though it wasn't planned, but my partner doesn't understand how much this has really affected me. I would really like to have a baby with him but I want to further my career at the moment. My partner has a child to someone else and I have a great relationship with his son.
Can you still grieve a year later?
This story was sent in on 08/04/2010